such a mess writing :(

i just don't know what should i do w my blog...... it was just like my diary but i don't know why i am so lazy if i open this web...... i'm so sorry bloggie...... btw i have a lot of stories to tell you. but i don;t know where i should start. oh ya maybe my trip to singapore. air asia's great offer. we're going to spore on december. i wish there's no obstacles in front of me like uas uts or something else...... emmm you should know that my write was so messy. too much point. and i have another story to share. my sister bianca must get a good highschool. if she does then i can go w my plan. some diet wrp. it'll be nice right? making my body skinny without spend my money on it. and i have another story like i must get IP 3.2 on semester 2 because my IP on semester one is poor enough. holy crap. i don;t know i can't afford that or not, but i must!!! bloggie you know what my weight is turning down. is that good right? it's because of wrp or i thought there was another reason. and the reason is...... i never slept before morning since i got my holiday.  all i did was sitting in front of computer and dvd-ing and i slept after  i pray. pooe me right. oh ya bloggie i'll be back cause i want make my tumblr. bye bloggie :')

long time no writing

hai. long time no writing. dikarenakan internet ngawur bgt. my last blog itu ttg kampus ya? yeah gue udh bisa nerima main sama mereka. walaupun krik. walaupun ngga bgt. tp hidup itu kan harus bersosialisasi. mau cerita. ngga enak bgt jadi anak kuliahan. ditambah keyboard ini yang susah sekali dipencet. tugas banyak. dulu waktu sma gue belajar 8 bab itu satu tahun. tp masuk dunia perkuliahan itu hell bgt. satu kali pertemuan satu bab. jadi sampe uas nanti ada 16 bab yg hrs gue pelajarin :( ngga sanggup. gue suka akutansi. maunya belajar akutansaja. akutansi gue 95 (ini jg bt karna biasanya 100 sama bu syafni) tp kenapa harus ada pelajaran yang namanya ekonomi mikro atau pengantar manajemen? sinting!!!!!!!!! nilai gue 48. itu juga udah dikatrol sama gurunya. yuhu bgt kan? gue jadi kaya ngga sanggup gt kuliah. pada pas awal perkuliahan semangat menggebu-gebu :(

SMALE cheers

thanks god you gave me this. at least this is the only thing i had after i left my school. SMALE CHEERS! WE ARE THE BEST! they always can makes my tears stop when i sad. they gave me power, family, and manymore. they teached me how to survive and strong for through your life. you may say i'm over to say this. but i swear i;m dying if i don't have them. i already lost my lottero, tongkies, and geffasion. so, just with them i can remember all the things that i've had when i;m on shs. i love you SMALE :")

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hari ini tanggal berapa? 5 Oktober 2010. suck banget. actually selama gue hiduo di perbanas akan selalu suck yah. ngga tau kenapa. yeah aku skrg vacum sama pacarku. gue ngerasa jalan kita udah beda aja. dia sudah membaur dengan anak kelas tp gue ngga. gue ngga bisa nerma kegiatan2 yg biasa mereka lakuin. dan merekapun kaget sama kebiasaan2 yg gue lakuin. ngga bisa kaya gini. kalo becanda jatoh2nya jadi krik bgt! gue ngga tau ini salah mereka apa salah gue. gue ngga tau gue yg salah apa mereka. yg jelas i'm not comfortable with it. i want my ld life back. sekarang2 ini gue jadi sering berantem sama ricky dgn masalah yg ngga penting pastnya, entah itu masalah apa. sampe diskusi aja jadi berantem. apa iya udh ngga cocok? ngga juga sih ya.ini tuh gue yg freak apa gmn sih? gue ngga biasa2nya loh susah adaptasi kaya gini. apa iya gue sombong? apa iya gue milih2 temen kaya yg ricky bilang. tp satu yg ngga bisa gue terima. kata ricky gue takut kalah eksis dari mereka. sinting tuh org. mana mungkin itu masalahnya. dari sma gue udh janji kok ngga mau ngeksis di kampus. lagipula. i have my own way to get my existention. jadi sebenernya apa yg salah? tp kalo dipikir2 gue tetep temenan kalo lg di kuliah deh. tp pas sampe rmh merasa aneh aja. knp ya? HELP ME MY ALLAH :''''''''''''''(

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bt tau!!!!!!!!!!!111 intinya tadi gue udh ngetik blog panjaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang bgt tp tiba tiba koneksi anjing keputus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dan gue lupa tadi nulis apa. intinya! gue mau setaunan. mau beliinkado buat ricky. tp bokek bt ya bt.

2nd day lebaran at granny's

bangun jam 6. naik kereta jam 10.30 sampe bogor stgh 1. makan. ke kuburan kakek jaja.pulang ke granny's ke rumah ua wawan. pulang2 badan panas bgt bgt.i'll continue it later. bobo dulu ya love.

1st day lebaran tahun 2010

hari lebaran pertama gue ngga solat ied. ngerasa berdosa banget. cuma gara-gara takbiran sampe jam 4 dan bangun kesiangan. actually solat masih sempet tp belom rapi-rapi. belom mandi dsb.apalagi begitu mau ngeliat keluar ada sekumpulan tetangga gue yang jablay. ya i knew they're my family but mereka selalu aja ngasih komeentar ke org2 padahal diri mereka pun ngga bagus. okay they always do fashion. but you know what? they children was in relationship with ministry man who already had a wife and children. but her mommy said 'it's alright' wtf?????????? ini lebaran ya? kenapa jadi ngmgin orang? hahaha eh tp kalo dipikr pake otak konyol ngga sih? itu kan sama aja ngejual anak sendiri!!!!!!!!!! kayanya story ini bakal berlanjut di sessi berikutnya deh. okay back to lebaran thingy, abis ngga solat id keluarga pada dtg kumpul makan trs ke kuburan kakek nenek om chacha. abisitu malem2 main dan tepar. besok pagi terbangun dan badan gue panas. tp mau gmn? harus ke bogor kan? done!