SMALE cheers

thanks god you gave me this. at least this is the only thing i had after i left my school. SMALE CHEERS! WE ARE THE BEST! they always can makes my tears stop when i sad. they gave me power, family, and manymore. they teached me how to survive and strong for through your life. you may say i'm over to say this. but i swear i;m dying if i don't have them. i already lost my lottero, tongkies, and geffasion. so, just with them i can remember all the things that i've had when i;m on shs. i love you SMALE :")

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hari ini tanggal berapa? 5 Oktober 2010. suck banget. actually selama gue hiduo di perbanas akan selalu suck yah. ngga tau kenapa. yeah aku skrg vacum sama pacarku. gue ngerasa jalan kita udah beda aja. dia sudah membaur dengan anak kelas tp gue ngga. gue ngga bisa nerma kegiatan2 yg biasa mereka lakuin. dan merekapun kaget sama kebiasaan2 yg gue lakuin. ngga bisa kaya gini. kalo becanda jatoh2nya jadi krik bgt! gue ngga tau ini salah mereka apa salah gue. gue ngga tau gue yg salah apa mereka. yg jelas i'm not comfortable with it. i want my ld life back. sekarang2 ini gue jadi sering berantem sama ricky dgn masalah yg ngga penting pastnya, entah itu masalah apa. sampe diskusi aja jadi berantem. apa iya udh ngga cocok? ngga juga sih ya.ini tuh gue yg freak apa gmn sih? gue ngga biasa2nya loh susah adaptasi kaya gini. apa iya gue sombong? apa iya gue milih2 temen kaya yg ricky bilang. tp satu yg ngga bisa gue terima. kata ricky gue takut kalah eksis dari mereka. sinting tuh org. mana mungkin itu masalahnya. dari sma gue udh janji kok ngga mau ngeksis di kampus. lagipula. i have my own way to get my existention. jadi sebenernya apa yg salah? tp kalo dipikir2 gue tetep temenan kalo lg di kuliah deh. tp pas sampe rmh merasa aneh aja. knp ya? HELP ME MY ALLAH :''''''''''''''(

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bt tau!!!!!!!!!!!111 intinya tadi gue udh ngetik blog panjaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang bgt tp tiba tiba koneksi anjing keputus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dan gue lupa tadi nulis apa. intinya! gue mau setaunan. mau beliinkado buat ricky. tp bokek bt ya bt.